Phobia
16 May 2015
If anybody asked what kind of phobias do I have, I can only list down two so far. One is death and two is spiking. Today I'm just going to talk about my second phobia. I don't want to brag or anything so before you judge me let me disclaim everything first. Just listen to what I want to say. Basically, I've been playing volleyball for more than half my life already. I started when I was primary two which was basically when I was the age of 8. Right now I am currently 17 this year though my birthday have no past yet. I was from Ai Tong School and was a bench player for my primary school days. There were times I get in to play in the match, I was really clumsy and all. However, I really love playing volleyball and worked really hard to achieve a spot for myself. I then move on and DSA into Xinmin Secondary along with my two other childhood friends. We managed to get in to Xinmin Secondary together. The three of us lived in the same block, went to the same primary school, same cca and same secondary school. Now we are in the same Polytechnic too plus the same school, SP School of Business. HAHA Okay, not main point. Anyway I moved house when I was primary six. Okay moving on, in C Division, I managed to earn a spot in the main team and played for the school. I was really happy to be able to be the main players of the team. I played the role centre. Back when we were in C division, training was really different, regardless of how touch it was, everybody stood together and we worked together. I remember how we were the very first c division team girls to challenge our graduated seniors to a match during the Alumni games. We were really daring. Our seniors actually praised us for that even though we got trashed. But hey, it was really fun and I never once regretted that. Neither did they I think... When we moved on the B division, many lost passion. It was disheartening. I did not lose passion. I really enjoyed playing. I love my teammates so much, how could I ever lose passion? However during last year's competition, it was hell. I could not perform my best in the competition. I could not spike. All my spikes were horrible even though I could perform during training. It was weird, very weird. I hated myself so much. I caused the team to lose and everybody knows that. I wanted to run away from volleyball and hence I now have 3 ccas in SP. However, I cannot let go of volleyball. Every time I spike a ball, the memories still haunt me... During yesterday's training I nearly broke down because I couldn't spike properly and the nightmare came rushing back. However, after that it seemed okay. Everything turned out fine in the end, I managed to spike quite a few good balls during free spiking. It was probably I told myself to relax, keep calm and believe in yourself. I managed to overcome my phobia but I don't know if it's permanently or temporarily. I would have to wait and see... It's all in the mind, if I believe I can, I can. Be confident. Alright that's all for today guys! If you have any phobias feel free to share them ya? I can try to help HAHAHA As in like as a friend to talk to... HAHA but hey I am not liable for anything okay? I am not a psychologist that can cure you by talking to you and brainwashing you. However, if you need someone to talk to I'm here ya? HAHA
Here's my ask.fm account but I can choose to answer the questions or not.
ask.fm/ieathelime
signing off,
-Ivy-
12.33pm@SG time
If anybody asked what kind of phobias do I have, I can only list down two so far. One is death and two is spiking. Today I'm just going to talk about my second phobia. I don't want to brag or anything so before you judge me let me disclaim everything first. Just listen to what I want to say. Basically, I've been playing volleyball for more than half my life already. I started when I was primary two which was basically when I was the age of 8. Right now I am currently 17 this year though my birthday have no past yet. I was from Ai Tong School and was a bench player for my primary school days. There were times I get in to play in the match, I was really clumsy and all. However, I really love playing volleyball and worked really hard to achieve a spot for myself. I then move on and DSA into Xinmin Secondary along with my two other childhood friends. We managed to get in to Xinmin Secondary together. The three of us lived in the same block, went to the same primary school, same cca and same secondary school. Now we are in the same Polytechnic too plus the same school, SP School of Business. HAHA Okay, not main point. Anyway I moved house when I was primary six. Okay moving on, in C Division, I managed to earn a spot in the main team and played for the school. I was really happy to be able to be the main players of the team. I played the role centre. Back when we were in C division, training was really different, regardless of how touch it was, everybody stood together and we worked together. I remember how we were the very first c division team girls to challenge our graduated seniors to a match during the Alumni games. We were really daring. Our seniors actually praised us for that even though we got trashed. But hey, it was really fun and I never once regretted that. Neither did they I think... When we moved on the B division, many lost passion. It was disheartening. I did not lose passion. I really enjoyed playing. I love my teammates so much, how could I ever lose passion? However during last year's competition, it was hell. I could not perform my best in the competition. I could not spike. All my spikes were horrible even though I could perform during training. It was weird, very weird. I hated myself so much. I caused the team to lose and everybody knows that. I wanted to run away from volleyball and hence I now have 3 ccas in SP. However, I cannot let go of volleyball. Every time I spike a ball, the memories still haunt me... During yesterday's training I nearly broke down because I couldn't spike properly and the nightmare came rushing back. However, after that it seemed okay. Everything turned out fine in the end, I managed to spike quite a few good balls during free spiking. It was probably I told myself to relax, keep calm and believe in yourself. I managed to overcome my phobia but I don't know if it's permanently or temporarily. I would have to wait and see... It's all in the mind, if I believe I can, I can. Be confident. Alright that's all for today guys! If you have any phobias feel free to share them ya? I can try to help HAHAHA As in like as a friend to talk to... HAHA but hey I am not liable for anything okay? I am not a psychologist that can cure you by talking to you and brainwashing you. However, if you need someone to talk to I'm here ya? HAHA
Here's my ask.fm account but I can choose to answer the questions or not.
ask.fm/ieathelime
signing off,
-Ivy-
12.33pm
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